Chronic Body Confidence

Hello, you! I hope you’ve been doing well and being your sassy self! I’m finally back, after not posting for AGES. I’ve set myself the goal of blogging at least once a month but we’ll see how that goes!;) Today, I want to talk to you about CHRONIC BODY CONFIDENCE (my term for body confidence with a chronic illness – quippy, I know;)). I know for so many people, feeling body confident can be a struggle. I consider myself lucky because, until recently, I’ve always been a confident person (sometimes, maybe too confident). However, over the past year, my body confidence has absolutely PLUMMETED. I’ve put on a fair bit of weight as a result of having multiple surgeries in the past 18 months or so, and the pain means I haven’t been able to exercise much at all. Also, I don’t know about you but I’ve found I often can’t be bothered to eat healthily when I’m in pain and very much enter a ‘fuck it, have a burger’ mindset. Of course, nothing’s wrong with this when you’re treating yourself but I have been banqueting like Henry VIII a lot of the days. Something I really struggle with is… View Post

Put Your War Paint On

Hello, you!   Forgive me for any errors in this post, I’m writing it dosed up on codeine and morphine. I’ve been back in hospital this week and I’m now under the care of a consultant for further investigation – it’s all fun and games. Since I got home, I’ve been lolloping around in a painkiller haze, rocking my unicorn jimjams (don’t know whether to be proud or horrified that I own these age 20) and desperately trying to find a new series to get into. Something that has been SO important to me when I’ve been ill (be that mentally or physically) is PUTTING MY WAR PAINT ON. Just to clarify… by this I do not mean army stripes and tribal markings. I mean glorious MAKE UP. If you’re a regular make up wearer, like myself, putting your make up on, even when you’re feeling so shitty it’s almost beyond belief, can really help you to feel more like yourself again. People have sometimes said to me ‘are you seriously putting make up on just to sit in the house????’ but it makes me feel more like it’s a normal day. I’m not saying it’s going to cure you… View Post

The Chronic Canceller

Hello, you!   We need to talk about the beauty of people who are understanding when you cancel plans. Having gone through extensive periods of illness in my life, I’ve had to cancel A LOT of plans, sometimes at the last minute. Living with a chronic pain syndrome means there’s no way of knowing how much pain I’m going to be in from one day to the next and in bouts of depression and anxiety, sometimes, you just don’t feel up to attending things you arranged on a good day. There are people that I absolutely DREAD having to cancel plans with, knowing full well that their reaction isn’t going to be a great one. In the past, people have said to me ‘Okay, I’m so done with this now’, ‘Really? You’re ill again?’, and ‘Don’t make plans if you’re not going to keep them’. Every one of those comments has been an absolute slap in the face. I don’t dispute for one minute that having plans cancelled at short notice is incredibly annoying, but imagine how it is for the person who has to cancel AND has to suffer with what’s preventing them from attending. I’ve noticed that people… View Post