Failures and Faux Pas

Hello, you!   I turned 21 a few weeks ago – you probably know this if you’re either in my life personally or follow me on Instagram because I have NOT STOPPED banging on about it. I do apologise, but I’m big on celebrating! I’m sure the photo below shows how much I DO NOT SHY AWAY from birthdays. Lots of my friends at uni thought this was a serious look, as in I actually went out thinking ‘hell yeah, I’m gonna be fighting off the lads tonight – WATCH OUT, RYAN’ – but clearly, I was (as I regularly do) taking the piss out of myself.     As I’ve reached the final, big milestone birthday before 30, I thought it would be fun to share some of my adult failures with you. These are some of the small (and sometimes hugely embarrassing) faux pas I’ve made since I turned 18… That is, I was definitely old enough to know better. I’d like to add a disclaimer now, to try and retain at least SOME dignity, and say that these are not an accurate representation of my intelligence (I hope), and with that, AWAY WE GO!   I used… View Post

Get Well Soon

Hello, you!   Those of you who follow me on Instagram or Twitter may know that I’ve been really unwell again – the pain I experienced in April/May time returned. This time, it clearly couldn’t be my appendix (as originally thought) as they had already removed it earlier this year – you can read about this here.  Over summer, I had twinges of the original pain – it was so distinctive – I assumed, and desperately hoped, that it was just scarring from the operation to remove my appendix. In early September, the pain started becoming more frequent, with a couple of twinges happening per day instead of over a couple of weeks – I went back to the doctor and he said to see how I went, book an appointment for three weeks time and review it then. Little did I know, in the space of those three weeks, I’d have had two more appointments with a new consultant AND a surgery. On the 15th September, my pain became so unbearable that I had to go to A&E, they refused to discharge me given how much morphine I needed so I stayed in for a couple of nights –… View Post

Everyday Champion: Lily Deans

Hello, you!   We need to talk about my gorgeous friend, Lily… An absolute champion who has come through so much. On the 2nd August 2016, Lily’s wonderful dad, Mick Deans, passed away after a valiant battle with a brain tumour. I met Lily that September and we became good pals, she has a heart of solid gold and she’s a brilliant laugh – a highlight of mine was us sitting mid-lecture, desperately refreshing ticket websites to get Take That tickets for our mum’s before they sold out. However, it soon became clear that she wasn’t having the time of her life at uni, as so many people were, but was actually having a really shitty one. Lily messaged me one day to say she’d decided to go home for a bit to sort her head out, I drove her to the station and that was that – she didn’t come back to uni. Here’s the thing though, Lily has watched her dad suffer with his illness, she’s struggled alongside her Mum, Louise, and brother, Harry, with their loss, had a really bloody rough time at uni and she’s STILL STANDING. Here are some things she had to say…  … View Post

Birthday Season is Upon me | AD

Hello, you! I don’t know about your wonderful self, but I just LOVE giving gifts – seriously, I’ll find any excuse to buy someone a present and don’t even get me started on wrapping paper and ribbon, it’s an unhealthy obsession. Now, I’m not going to start referring to myself as the Queen of Gift Giving (ha ha ha, I don’t do that, that would be sad…) but I am bloody good at finding a great present. Birthday season is upon me… I know people are born all year round but many people who are special to me have clustered birthdays in Feb-March and again in July-August – these my busiest months on the gift giving front! I realise I’m beginning to make myself sound a bit like Santa… If I carry on consuming cheeseburgers at this rate, I may end up a similar size. I love buying presents that can be sentimental and kept for a long time – I think it’s so lovely to have things to look back on, I still have the bracelet my parents bought me for my 16th birthday. One website that sells great jewellery is Uncommon Goods – lots of their jewellery has… View Post

To thirteen year old me…

To thirteen year old me,   You’ve just turned thirteen and you’ve stopped sleeping. Let me tell you, kid, this is the start of a very long road, you’ve got five years of illness ahead of you, so buckle up. You’ll have a sleeping disorder for two years, no sedatives will knock you out and box sets will become your best friend. The night can be a lonely place but you’ll get through it, you’ll be awake to see the sun rise, so trust that at the end of the darkness there is always light. Just as you start sleeping properly again you’re going to get hit by chronic pain. You’ll be in hospital six times within two months and the doctors won’t know what causes it; they work it out eventually, keep going. You’ll be loaded up to your eyes on painkillers and experience treatments so agonising you can’t even comprehend the pain and the pain will still be there, but you’ve got to carry on. While this is going on, you’re going to lose the most monumental man you’ve ever known and the pain of it will break you to the point where you feel like you can’t… View Post