To thirteen year old me…

To thirteen year old me,   You’ve just turned thirteen and you’ve stopped sleeping. Let me tell you, kid, this is the start of a very long road, you’ve got five years of illness ahead of you, so buckle up. You’ll have a sleeping disorder for two years, no sedatives will knock you out and box sets will become your best friend. The night can be a lonely place but you’ll get through it, you’ll be awake to see the sun rise, so trust that at the end of the darkness there is always light. Just as you start sleeping properly again you’re going to get hit by chronic pain. You’ll be in hospital six times within two months and the doctors won’t know what causes it; they work it out eventually, keep going. You’ll be loaded up to your eyes on painkillers and experience treatments so agonising you can’t even comprehend the pain and the pain will still be there, but you’ve got to carry on. While this is going on, you’re going to lose the most monumental man you’ve ever known and the pain of it will break you to the point where you feel like you can’t… View Post

Lord knows how to start a blog…

Well, hello there, I’ll be honest with you… I have no idea how to a blog. Probably not the best sentence to inspire confidence but it’s a start! I feel introductions are always a safe bet, so… My name’s Sophie, I’m 19 and I’m from Nottingham (did you hear the distant cheers in the background?) I’m a great believer that sometimes in life, the smallest things make the biggest impact. It is a lesson I learnt through a long period of illness, suffering with a sleeping disorder (Chronic Insomnia), Anxiety, Depression, Asperger’s Syndrome and a chronic pain syndrome (which means I’m in pain all the time) – quite the list, ay? Though my sleeping disorder is in the past, I still struggle with bouts of anxiety and depression intermittently but struggle with Asperger’s Syndrome and my pain syndrome on a daily basis. Not to yack on about my own problems here, just want to provide some background knowledge. I would hate to give the impression that I’m one of those people that tells someone with Clinical Depression to ‘just smile’ – it isn’t that bloody simple! When you’re going through a rough patch, people will often tell you to make… View Post